I am a born again Christian living in Melbourne Australia. I believe that I don’t have answers to the ways of God but am a student of our Helper- The Holy Spirit Who teaches us all things. I am learning a lot from the Holy Ghost and I am glad to share it with the world.
May all the glory and honour go back to God if a single soul is helped by the words that I write in this forum.
I got miraculously delivered from my former empty way of life following a series of incidences that spanned several years. Its then that I discovered that God’s love is enough and I didn’t need to bow to idols.
I wasn’t always living as committed Christian. I made a public commitment to be a Christian in high school but I failed to live in victory. However much I tried, I never lived a holy life. I didn’t know how to. I wanted to live right but I was unable. Everybody in all christian groups I joined looked very spiritual and I needed to blend in. I saw salvation as an instant transition to a state and not a gradual transformation of my sinful nature. The gospels we heard then didn’t help much. What I heard around me were either a feel good or prosperity gospels. Prosperity was popular with our young minds. We were taught not be at the bottom but top in the achievement ladder.
I don’t fault any need to seek prosperity in Christ, but the emphasis should be transformation of our sinful nature not material gain. You can use such a gospel to the poor materially and fail to bring the intended message of salvation to those that are not in need. Salvation is a reconciliation of mankind to God by the work of Jesus Christ on the cross . It redeems man from his sinful nature that he inherited from Adam
Like many other christians that I know, living in victory became a challenge and I dropped off from the spiritual hype and adopted the life of a church goer. I started indulging in worldliness and therefore living a life filled with guilt. I was honest to myself and didn’t want to continue faking Christianity any more.
Non confessing believers looked happier. They didn’t seem to have spiritual supervisors to hide from. They were not targets of gossip and slander mills in church groups. They were not trying to act spiritual, but enjoyed what they did without guilt.
Don’t even think for a second that I am advocating this type of life as a non christian. Proverbs 23:17 Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the LORD.
The few instances that I went for help from those I thought were on top of the spiritual ladder, I got no real solution but more guilt and condemnation. There was nothing tangible they could offer. They were fig trees without fruits. It was very frustrating. Mathew 21: 19 Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves. Then he said to it, “May you never bear fruit again!” Immediately the tree withered. How many of us know that they can’t get real help from those imposing themselves as leaders in our church groups?
I longed for happiness that I could not get from friendships, my immediate family or from material possessions. My personal life was in shambles for many reasons that I can’t discuss in this post.
Many of us are going through such a frustration in pursuit of happiness. You may not know or agree with me but everything a human does is in pursuit of some form of love.
I literally had no relationship with God because deep down in my heart, I had major forms of idolatry. God hates idolatry. I didn’t understand what idolatry was. Read idolatry here…
When you are an idolater, God’s love has no room in your heart. An idolater looks for love in an idol. You may have so many idols that you are worshipping unknowingly, your spouse, your boyfriend, your girlfriend, your children, your job, your wealth or even your personal looks and physique. The problem is that these idols can’t satisfy your inborn hunger for love. They terribly disappoint. Any form of an idol is a one way plane ticket to hell!
Some Christians spend hours online looking for idols of love. They have sad spots in their hearts that long for filling by some human love. It may sound like a joke but no human can live in an absolute happiness on another human’s love. You need a permanent source and this is God’s love before you channel it to someone else. If you have never experienced it , you can’t talk about it. It’s not an emotional feel-good experience that we sometimes feel during a worship or prayer. It’s a constant glow like that of a bulb of a peaceful satisfaction within you, a river of gladness. It doesn’t end with moods or season. You sleep and wake up with it. The best description is that of Jesus when he talked to a Samaritan woman about a spring of living water. This bubbling living water is what am talking about. It’s the presence of the Holy Spirit in you that gives you victory over sin.
I was ignorant and blind. I fell in successive personal issues. It’s as if someone had opened a flood gate of evil. Evil was dripping and flowing everywhere. Unknown to me, I was in the middle of a battle from one of the worst cases of a demonic presence and attacks in my life (I can’t share the specifics this in this post). Relationships were broken. I was guilty, powerless, loveless and a deeply hurt human being. I felt like giving up life. But like many in this earthly journey, I still hoped that I will make it through my idols. Unfortunately when you pursue idols to give you happiness, you collect or encounter evil forces. Some of them become part of your life and you can’t wriggle out of them without a proper deliverance.
I thank God for this born again brother who was brave enough to tell me what my problem was. He is the only person who has ever told me to my face that I had demons . Interestingly I still considered myself a Christian though I was living like a pagan. I rejected the possibility of evil spirits living inside of me. We even argued. His courage was the first step towards my deliverance.
My personal issues escalated exponentially around this time. Somewhere at the height of all these, the Holy Spirit reached me in a supernatural way.
My story begins here…
I am sure you are now wondering, really… the story had not started? Yes it had not.
In early April of 2015, I boarded a plane from Melbourne to Launceston on one of my usual work trips. I was at the lowest point of my life after my partner and I separated. Nothing seemed to be working for me at all. I had bottled up years and years of frustration in pursuit of unconditional love. I made several calls in an effort for a reconciliation but all failed . I hit the lowest emotional level that any human being can reach. I contemplated self destruction. I yearned for someone to come and hug me and tell me that all will be OK. Nobody was there. I felt sabotaged from every side. I had invested a lot the best way I knew how in my relationship and it hurt.
Surprisingly I was able to finish all the jobs I had lined up in this trip before flying back home to Melbourne. On the last day of my trip as I drove to the airport, for some weird reasons that I didn’t understand, a scripture from the book of 1 Kings was alive in my mind. I was driving in a hired car on the main state highway when this scripture started playing in my thoughts. I could not remember the exact words in this scripture, but I remembered Elijah telling the people of Israel that for a long time, they had dilly-dallied between Jehovah and their fake gods! He asked them to make a choice who to serve, Baal or the living God ( 1 Kings 18:21) .
I could not resist the conviction that was boiling in my heart . I had done the same thing. I was neither in the world or Christianity. I was not for God or against Him. What now unfolded in my mind is that I was clearly lost.
I instantly and consciously made up my mind to surrender the whole me to Jesus alone in that car as I sped at 100 km per hour. I felt that I had nothing more to lose, since I had lost it all and was possibly about to lose my life. Years of hardness , frustrations and acute sorrows started melting from my heart. I could feel for the first time in many years a glimmer of hope strike the horizon of my life as God’s love flowed freely through to my soul. Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I humbled myself before God and accepted responsibility for my sins without blaming someone else.
I could not explain then why all of a sudden I was engulfed with this experience but I now know that God was waiting for this act of humility to respond. It proves to me (and I have also heard it preached elsewhere) that humility is an act of your will. You need to humble yourself, forgive people their wrongs against you, irrespective of whether they deserve it or not and forget the past.
I didn’t stop the car but continued worshipping God. I was immediately filled with God’s peace and assurance.This felt very strange since for many years I had not known this kind of peace. Just a few hours earlier I was toying with an Idea of self-destruction.I found myself singing loudly a worship song all the way to the Airport.
I flew back home that evening and within that week I attended a christian prayer fellowship for the first time in about seven plus years. It was so good that I got refilled with the Holly Spirit.
A few weeks after, I went for a ministry of deliverance. Someone had recommended a church group of some proven and reputable people who feared and walked righteously with God.
In the name of Jesus, evil spirits and ancestral curses were cast out of me. This took a while. I remember the night I went for the deliverance prayer (the first one that I ever had in my life) it took about 3-4 hours . By the time I went home it was about midnight .
After that night of prayer and deliverance, I noticed the following morning that I was a different person. Some emotional traits that plagued my life were either completely absent or greatly reduced. I had constantly suffered from extreme shame, embarrassment, guilt, shyness and unfounded fear . I could not understand how these dreadful characteristics of me that had stalked the whole of my childhood and adult life were gone all at once. This left me shocked but happy to be free.
A strange lingering joy started glowing down my throat and felt like it was coming from my belly.
This experience gave me an aura of peace around me. I started walking with a new found confidence.
I have since discovered that the unhappiness, the lack of peace, the lack of sleep, the headaches, the bad mood swings, the hopelessness and many other sad situations was not me but the evil spirits living in me in their normal states that oozed through my body (since these characters have no bodies of their own). Once they were gone, their sad states disappeared with them and the peace in my soul was unbelievable (read Luke 8: 35 and the people went out to see what had happened. When they came to Jesus, they found the man from whom the demons had gone out, sitting at Jesus’ feet, dressed and in his right mind; and they were afraid.)
I believe that these were a gang of emotional demons that just gave me up when I honestly accepted Christ into my heart. Some demons do leave but for some other reasons, others stick around. I have discussed about that in this site. We can be demonised not necessarily demon possessed if we are Christians. The English translation used here is wrong and that's why completely demonised people go about thinking that they are OK because they don't see how they can be possessed by demons which is true to some extend. If you are a christian and can't kick off or crucify that habit then you have company. Come down from your pride and seek deliverance. It means you are demonised!
I have since then enjoyed my new me. I can speak in public and work meetings with confidence and clarity I never had before. I can share the word of God without fear. Above all I can surely now agree with Romans 8:1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. The guilt and fear of eternal judgement vanished.
Caution: If you are recently delivered don’t be surprised if you encounter mocking and knowing smiles from those close to you when you share about your deliverance with them.
I discovered sooner than later that not all around me were sharing my enthusiasm about Christ and my new self.
I am not sorry to say this; many lukewarm Christians are trained what to think and behave by demons both in and outside church. When you give your testimony, they reject it. Don’t wonder why, if you walked together as friends before your deliverance (Amos 3:3 Do two walk together unless they have agreed to do so?) , then they have what you had. Demons.
Demons mock the work of Jesus Christ in people’s lives. They do that unsuspectingly through persons near you.
Out of ignorance this became a new battle front for my new me. I could not comprehend why persons I had held in high esteem were not welcoming.
In my confusion, the Holy Spirit became my new teacher. I started being aware that I could see or sense things that were not obvious to everybody. What I didn’t know then was that, since I was in a fellowship with the Holy Spirit, my spiritual gifts were alive and were being tested.
I have a record of incidences where I was unknowingly prepared beforehand for encounters with persons who were to oppose me. I don’t think they were all coincidences.
Very hurting and mocking comments were made but I felt fired up and ready to soldier on. I needed to break off from the familiar moulding that I was being forced to.
With all humility, I can only sum up my predicament and eventual victory from this setback as I made my first real spiritual baby steps using the following scenario.
A mother hen had newly hatched eggs where one egg was from an eagle. The baby eagle grew, eventually felt free and wanted to fly. The mother hen and other chicks in the nest tried to stop it. Do you think they succeeded?
I continued growing in the months that followed seeking knowledge from written, audio or video materials as the Holy Spirit led me.
Then on my own and in prayer I got more deliverance from other stubborn demons that had made their way back or had not left. The Holy Spirit continued to point at areas in my life that were still in darkness and therefore had become strongholds of impurity. When I yielded more, I became happier.
When demons leave you, your body, your reactions,your emotions, your mind and countenance changes. This is because we get these things from the demons living in us.
Luke 8: 35 So the people went out to see what had happened. They came to Jesus and found the man whom the demons had left, sitting at Jesus’ feet, clothed and in his right mind;….
Mark 9: 26 -27 After shrieking and convulsing him violently, the spirit came out. The boy became like a corpse, so that many said, “He is dead.” But Jesus took him by the hand and helped him to his feet, and he stood up.
I fell less and less into temptations and grew in true happiness that comes from God and not based on feelings
We sometimes mistakenly think that the lust in our flesh is normal love. This is not true. Lust is a counterfeit of love. Lust is overwhelmingly selfish, leads to sexual sin, leads to unnatural acts of sexual sin and also leads to death. Lust also defiles us and therefore breaks our fellowship with God.
Any stubborn habitual sexual act has its roots in a demon of lust. Materials written under the inspiration of demons disguised as science, have emerged encouraging some sexual habits as beneficial to you psychologically. This is a lie. Don’t defile yourself. You can wait and do it in a marriage with your husband or wife.
If your body’s urge is overwhelming or unstoppable it is lust from impure spirits that are living in us. Don’t serve them by embracing loneliness, becoming clingy, becoming needy or going wild and becoming a serial dater. We have more important earthly assignments to carry out other than bowing to evils spirits and letting them use our bodies to satisfy their desires. Instead cast the evil spirits out of you.
This can be done in two ways, 1. Persistently resist the devil in your thoughts (James 4:7 … Resist the devil, and he will flee from you) 2. Let someone pray and cast them out of you just like Jesus or His Apostles did in bible times (this persons should not be strangers to you and must have been proven to walk right with God and believe in the deliverance of evil spirits. If in doubt listen to materials by Derek Prince and Francis Frangapane they are good sources of knowledge in this area).
Jesus cast out many evils spirits from people who appeared normal and we are not an exception. I have a personal list of the impure spirits that were cast out of me or those that just gave me up after my mind continued changing more to Christ like as I resisted the devil. Remember that this can’t happen unless you are honest with yourself , resist the devil in your thoughts and be willing to repent your sins.
Philippians 4:7 If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus
It has been a beautiful Journey with God’s love increasing in my heart. I don’t need to be with someone to get this type of love. It completes me in all ways. Love that is warm, love that covers faults from people around me, love that heals the soul and love that gives indescribable peace.
I hug my pillow at night and go to sleep drenching myself in His love and peace. Just like a baby sleeps in total peace holding on to it’s momma, without a fear and confident that this is its place of protection.
John 10:28 I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.
God has dropped something else on my lap. This is a state of being contented and not struggling for a human affection to function. Given my previous lifestyle, this is a miracle.
This gift of God is described in James 4:4-6 and I am sure it applies when you make an honest decision to eliminate worldliness in your life. Can you spot it?
4 You adulterous people,a don’t you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Therefore, anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. 5 Or do you think Scripture says without reason that he jealously longs for the spirit he has caused to dwell in us? 6 But he gives us more grace…
It’s about extra grace once you honestly eliminate idolatry.
Many sins we struggle with are tied to deep reference for other things above God. I didn’t have the ability see that before because I was obviously living in idolatry and God hates idolatry. Idolatry was the main sin in my heart that had opened doors to other sins.
Demonic networks through persons you trust will always try to introduce you to traps through what they think you may like or what they are already trapped in e.g questionable business ventures or ungodly friendships at the expense of a sincere walk with God. This is because they worship these things and they will use any language to persuade you and rope you in, to this idolatry. Once it takes root, floods of evil start flowing into your life.
Its important to note that God’s blessing come without sorrow. It’s also scriptural for us to guard our hearts against anything that pierces our hearts with sorrows.
Proverbs 10:22 The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.
I have now formed a habit of having a quiet love relationship with the Holy Spirit. Many times we go to the prayer room/closet to fight and shout. I have no problem with that, I sometimes do that. I find giving the Holy Spirit enough quiet moments going through all your pains, longings and hopes creates a bond that cannot be broken. I used to feel like not leaving the prayer room because of the warmth and peace that was there. One day I asked the Holy Spirit to go with me to my desk and you can bet that He did. I could be talking to my colleagues in the office or in the field connecting data cables and configuring PABXs (for i am in the area of telecommunications) while the Holy Spirit is flowing down on me. Several people that I don’t even know have commended about the glitter that they can see on my face (Psalm 34:5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame). I have used that chance to share the gospel with them.
In order to guard myself from falling prey to seducing spirits , I have made the bible my final reference for what I read, hear or watch.
The bible was written by persons inspired by the Holy Spirit and therefore is a trustworthy word of God.
However, the translators of the scriptures to modern languages made many mistakes and it’s wise to read scriptures from more than one translation when in doubt. In some cases you can discuss it with native speakers of the languages used in the original manuscripts like Hebrew, Latin, Greek or Aramaic “the lingua franca of the region when Jesus walked on earth as a human” .
I hope this testimony helps you to live a better life and let’s look forward to meeting in heaven one day.
May God be praised for ever!
Servant Of Christ