I live in Melbourne Australia. I believe that I don’t have all the answers to the ways of righteousness but ever since I got an experience with God, I got a dose of his power in my spirit over evil. This was a wonderful experience for I was before powerless against evil. Evil made me lead a life of fear. Fear made me a doormat of any human that was an agent of evil.
John 1:12 (KJ 2000 Bible) But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the children of God, even to them that believe on his name
I am learning a lot from God and I am glad to share it with the world.
May all the glory and honor go back to God if a single soul is helped by the words that I write in this website.
I got miraculously delivered from my former empty way of life following a series of incidences that spanned several years of my life. It’s then that I discovered that God’s love is enough and I didn’t need to bow to idols of life.
I wasn’t always living right and I can’t claim that I live right either. I made a commitment to live right back in high school but I failed to obtain any victory but led a life of shame and guilt . However much I tried, I never lived a victorious life. I didn’t know how to. I wanted to live right but I was unable. I saw salvation as an instant transition to a state and not a gradual transformation of my sinful nature. The gospels we heard then didn’t help much. What I heard around me were either a feel good or prosperity gospels. Prosperity was popular with our young minds. We were taught not be at the bottom but top in the achievement ladder.
I don’t fault any need to seek prosperity in Christ, but the emphasis should be transformation of our sinful nature not material gain. You can use such a gospel to the poor materially and fail to bring the intended message of salvation to those that are not in need. Salvation is a reconciliation of mankind to God by the work of Jesus Christ on the cross . It redeems man from his sinful nature that he inherited from Adam
Like many other Christians that I know, living in victory became a challenge and I dropped off from the spiritual hype and adopted the life of a church goer, just to blend in. I don’t know if I faked it or I went with the wind.
I went to church but those who didn’t go to church looked happier. They didn’t seem to have spiritual supervisors to hide from. They were not targets of gossip and slander mills in church groups. They were not trying to act spiritual, but enjoyed what they did without guilt.
Don’t even think for a second that I am advocating the life of a non christian, no.
The few instances that I went for spiritual help from those I thought were on top of the spiritual ladder in the church, I got no real solution but more guilt and condemnation. There was nothing tangible they could offer. They were fig trees without fruits. It was very frustrating. Mathew 21:19 Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves… How many of us know that they can’t get real help from those imposing themselves as spiritual leaders?
I longed for happiness that I could not get from friendships, my immediate family or from material possessions. My personal life was in shambles for many reasons that I can’t discuss in this post.
Many of us are going through such a frustration in pursuit of happiness. You may not know or agree with me but everything a human does is in pursuit of some form of love.
I literally had no relationship with God because deep down in my heart, I had major forms of idolatry. God hates idolatry. I didn’t understand what idolatry was. Read idolatry here…
When you are an idolater, God’s love has no room in your heart. An idolater looks for love in an idol. You may have so many idols that you are worshiping unknowingly, your spouse, your boyfriend, your girlfriend, your children, your job, your wealth or even your personal looks and physique. The problem is that these idols can’t satisfy your inborn hunger for love. They terribly disappoint. Any form of an idol is a one way plane ticket to a life of misery!
Some Christians spend hours online looking for idols of love. They have sad spots in their hearts that long for filling by some human love. It may sound like a joke but no human can live in an absolute happiness on another human’s love. You need a permanent source and this is God’s love before you channel it to someone else. If you have never experienced it , you can’t talk about it. It’s not an emotional feel-good experience that we sometimes feel during a worship or prayer. It’s a constant glow like that of a bulb of a peaceful satisfaction within you, a river of gladness. It doesn’t end with moods or season. You sleep and wake up with it. The best description is that of Jesus when he talked to a Samaritan woman about a spring of living water. This bubbling living water is what am talking about. It’s the presence of the Holy Spirit in you that gives you victory over sin.
John 4:13-14 (NIV) Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
I was ignorant and blind to what could give me victory. I fell in successive personal issues. It’s as if someone had opened a flood gate of evil. Evil was dripping and flowing everywhere. Unknown to me, I was in the middle of a battle from one of the worst cases of a demonic presence and attacks in my life (I can’t share the specifics this in this post). Relationships were broken. I was guilty, powerless, loveless and a deeply hurt human being.
I felt like giving up on life. But like many in this earthly journey of less than 120 years, I still hoped that I will make it through my idols.
How many years do you think you have to live before you hit the human age ceiling? Few people hit this age. See human longevity history.
Genesis 6:3 Then the LORD said, “My Spirit will not contend with humans forever, for they are mortal; their days will be a hundred and twenty years.”
Unfortunately when you pursue idols to give you happiness, you collect or encounter evil forces. Some of them become part of your life and you can’t wriggle out of them without a proper deliverance.
I am glad someone was brave enough to tell me what my problem was. The only person who has ever told me to my face that my issues were spiritual and influenced by unclean spirits living in me. Interestingly I still considered myself a Christian though I was living like a pagan. I rejected the possibility of evil spirits living inside of me. We even argued. His courage was the first step towards my deliverance.
My personal issues escalated exponentially around this time. Somewhere at the height of all these, God reached me in a supernatural way.
My story begins here…
I am sure you are now wondering, really… the story had not started? Yes it had not.
In early April of 2015, I boarded a plane from Melbourne to Launceston on one of my usual work trips. I was at the lowest point of my life after I had separated from a relationship of several years. Nothing seemed to work for me at all. My efforts to reconcile failed . I hit the lowest emotional level that any human being can reach. I had a bottled up frustration from many years of trying to gain unconditional love from another human. I contemplated self destruction. I yearned for someone to come and hug me and tell me that all will be OK. Nobody was there. I felt alone and sabotaged. I had invested a lot the best way I knew how in my relationships and it hurt.
This was the last day of my trip and as I drove to the airport, for some weird reasons that I didn’t understand, I felt that I needed to surrender all to my creator. I didn’t know how to but said aloud, ” I surrender my life to you God. I can’t fix it. Please fix it”. I said this genuinely and I had no intention of ever trying to control it again.
What happened was beautiful! Instantly, as I sped at 100 km per hour on the motorway to the Airport, sorrows from years of hardness, frustrations and acute pain started melting from my heart. God’s love flowed freely through to my soul. Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I humbled myself further before God in that car and accepted responsibility for my sins without blaming someone else.
I could not explain then why all of a sudden I was engulfed with this experience but I now know that God was waiting for this act of humility to respond. It proves to me (and I have also heard it preached elsewhere) that humility is an act of your will. You need to humble yourself, forgive people their wrongs against you, irrespective of whether they deserve it or not and forget the past.
I didn’t stop the car but continued worshiping God. I was filled with God’s peace and assurance.This felt very strange since for many years I had not known this kind of peace. Just a few hours earlier I was toying with an Idea of self-destruction.
I flew back home that evening and over the following weeks joined a church group for prayers, I sought deliverance from unclean spirits that I had collected over the years from my careless living style. Ancestral spirits were also cast out of me. The sorrows were gone with the unclean spirits that left me. (NOTE: unclean spirits plague our lives from our own actions or from the actions of our ancestors. That’s why when cleaning your life, both types of unclean spirits should be addressed.)
I started loving people. I felt like hugging people as I went to work. I was happy.
It has been a beautiful Journey with God’s love increasing in my heart. I don’t need to be with someone to get this type of love. It completes me in all ways. Love that is warm, love that covers faults from people around me, love that heals the soul and love that gives indescribable peace.
I hug my pillow at night and go to sleep drenching myself in His love and peace. Just like a baby sleeps in total peace holding on to it’s mama, without a fear and confident that this is its place of protection.
John 10:28 I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.
Many sins we struggle with are tied to deep reference for other things above God.
I didn’t have the ability see that before because I was obviously living in idolatry and God hates idolatry. Idolatry was the main sin that operated in my heart and had opened doors to other sins.
Demonic networks through persons you trust will always try to trap you through what they think you may like or what they are already trapped in. In this networks they worship the creation. They will use any language to persuade you and rope you in, to their idolatry. Once it takes root, evil streams will start flowing into every fibre of your life.
Its important to note that God’s blessing come without sorrow.
Proverbs 10:22 The blessing of the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.
It’s also scriptural for us to guard our hearts against anything that pierces our hearts with sorrows.
I have now formed a habit of having a quiet love relationship with the Holy Spirit.
Many times we go to the prayer room or closet to fight and shout. I have no problem with that, I sometimes do that.
I find giving your spirit enough quiet moments in the presence of God by going through all your pains, longings and hopes creates a strong bond with your creator.
Several people that I didn’t even know commended about the glitter that they could see on my face (Psalm 34:5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame).
In order to guard myself from falling prey to seducing voices, I have made the bible my final reference for what I read, hear or watch.
The bible was written by persons inspired by the Holy Spirit and therefore is a trustworthy word of God.
However, the translators of the scriptures to modern languages made many mistakes and it’s wise to read scriptures from more than one translation when in doubt. In some cases you can discuss it with native speakers of the languages used in the original manuscripts like Hebrew, Latin, Greek or Aramaic “the lingua franca of the region when Jesus walked on earth as a human” .
I hope this testimony helps you to live a better life and let’s look forward to meeting in heaven one day.
May God be praised for ever!
Servant Of Christ who claims the following heritage;
Isaiah 54:17 (NIV) no weapon forged against you will prevail, and you will refute every tongue that accuses you. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is their vindication from me,” declares the LORD.